…or Opportunity?
Life. Sometimes it just sucks.
Plans we made – cancelled.
Dreams we dreamed – squashed.
Friendships we formed – hurtful.
Goals we set – a waste of effort.
Hopes for the future – dashed away with unexpected news.
What am I supposed to be doing? Where am I supposed to be going? What is my purpose?
Ever been in this situation?
Recently, I’d finished writing my goals for the year. I set up my calendar for the year. I made my travel plans for the year. I found a job I liked for the year.
Big breath in…..hold…..breathe out and relax into the year.
And then I felt it. A little bit of complacency settled in alongside my plans for the year.
A few days ago, I was given some information. The information DID NOT line up with my year…at all. My mind began to swirl. My emotions started racing from high to low…and then lower. And I had no gummi bears to coddle all those feelings! I took on the Scarlet O’Hara persona, “I can’t think about that right now. If I do, I’ll go crazy. I’ll think about that tomorrow.”
And I went to bed.
Next morning, a long walk with Piper in the early sunshine gave new perspective. What had felt like a major obstacle standing directly in front of me, slowly became an opportunity. While my feelings blinded me and pulled the covers over my head, fresh air and a wide open sky gave my imagination room to decipher. With each step, my ideas began to flow.
I find, I am the limiter of those possibilities. My greatest obstacle is my age. I will be 63 this month and like Abraham of the Bible, I find myself struggling against, “But Lord, I’m too old.” I don’t feel old and I like adventure and the excitement of the new. However, society puts limits on age. Sometimes it’s hard to fight against the pressure. So, I’m asking for faith like Abraham. Even at 63, I want to see limitless opportunities and not foreboding obstacles. I want to live with open hands to let go of preconceived plans and perceptions. And with open hands, I want to willingly receive His alternate purpose.
This has been my question – Is my obstacle an excuse to stay in my complacency or is it an opportunity to get out of my comfort zone and discover my inner strength and His purpose?
I’m choosing to get out of my comfort zone.
